All I knew about chemo therapy was what I’ve seen in the media.
Hair loss, weight loss (is that a good thing?), fatigue, nausea...
“Babette, are you getting the Red Devil?”
“You’re probably getting that red devil one.”
Red Devil? What is the Red Devil?
“You’re scaring me.”
I always thought Chemo was just... you know... Chemo.
But it’s not... there are different types of chemo... and with my luck... I got the worst one... this Red Devil everyone kept telling me about and to add to my already worrying mind... remove weight loss as a side effect and please add weight gain, just to piss me off a little bit more, thank you.
4 Rounds Red Devil.
12 Rounds Taxol.
This red thing is so bad, I had to get an operation where they implanted a chemo port under my color bone because they don’t want my arteries to cave.
Hallo Anxiety, welcome back.
Hallo Hospital room, all alone during Corona.
I know I am resilient and Brave, but doing this on my own. I never wanted to run away from being independent so bad.
I didn’t even stay the night, but I was in so much pain, and with my drains, I walked myself out.
I started chemo on the 5th of May. I was crying during the whole session.
Everyone was kind and caring.
I had an enormous headache and the next morning I described it as follows:
How I felt the day after chemo
So that carried on for about 3 days before I started to feel better (x 4)
Crying!
The Red Devil
Currently I am receiving a weekly low dose of Taxol and I am not experiencing any side effects. I do have anticipation anxiety and my eyebrows are saying goodbye.
But... I am feeling great and enjoying my life at home during lockdown.
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AnnaG
I love your honesty. I don’t know you, but I want you to beat this.
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